Remember those spring in upstate NY pics I posted a while ago? It's snowing this morning. Typical.
I have a lot to do today, most of it things that I should have done weeks ago, like file for a tax extension (no way in hell will we get taxes done by the 15th). Plus the usual stuff, made more annoying by yesterday's hard drive crash. Ok, I only lost 2 months of things, and really, that's not a lot, and it could be just so much worse... and I've had it be much worse; years ago I lost a totally not backed up hard drive with years of data on it... traumatic, but really it's kind of amazing what you can do without if it's just gone. It still seems sometimes, though, that a huge chunk of my past is missing. I'd like to go back and remember who I was then... or, I suppose, maybe I wouldn't. Not really.
Anyway, all of that means that I somehow have to push through this lethargy that's been just consuming me lately. I'm up, and I've made the tea, and nibbled on a yummy chicken sausage, and now I need to get some things done, just DO them. I'm a all or nothing person really; that's the problem... only two speed, zoom and slug. Lately I've been set on sub-slug, reluctant-slug, something like that. I need to get some motivation back somehow.
But my weight is fractionally lower again for today... and so if we can just have a decent food day today, it might look pretty good for the week. And maybe... just maybe... Michael will be below 500. It's a stretch; he'd have to be 5 lbs lighter than he was mid-week, the last time he weighed himself, and he hasn't been losing at that rate. But it could happen. Next week if not this week, right?
This is a lonely thing sometimes. Michael, who is far from a morning person, is sitting in the next chair snoring lightly and looking like a reject zombie. And I sit here and write... to whoever will read. Hi, everyone. How are you this Sunday morning? What are you doing today? Will it be fun? Sometimes you feel the spider-thread connections to everyone else in the world, and sometimes you just feel alone and like there's no one you can say that to.
Anyway. Sometimes you just have to believe. And keep going with things, right or wrong.